In re: :)

"Yes, perhaps it's true we can't 'live' without a job--although I hope we're grown-up enough to know the difference between life & the accumulation of a bunch of fucking gadgets."

This is just a platform, for now, to accomplish the things I want. I can even craft things that I enjoy and appreciate out of it, I can even feel passionate about aspects, but it's not life.

The one I regard as the most important aspect of it all returns to me in two days on wings from a long and stressful absence, but even she is not life, however much of being she fills.

Just recently, I was talking with someone close to me I've known most of my life, and it was just a normal conversation, but I saw behind the insecurities, history, baggage, confusion, love, respect, fear and angst...and I saw the person, for maybe the first time. No real reason for the timing in an immediate sense, but it was like the scene when Dorothy opens the door into Oz. I'd talked about many important things with her before, loved her and respected her, but this was the first time really seeing. I don't know if I'm explaining it.

It's all been much like the Being Aware of Your Awareness trick, or the twist of being a node in a moving Universe as suggested by Horselover Fat, this past month. It's been incredibly slow, but on the other hand, it's felt like time-passing-as-time, not the artificial truncation of perception looking back to university years, but a day was a day, a second was a second. Even in absence, that has to be appreciated. While I want it to be Wednesday evening already, it'll be here in the time as it should be, and everything will be in its right place in its time. Continue onward for as long as there is time.

"Of course one must go on "making a living" somehow-- but the essential thing is to make a life." -Hakim Bey